Worried

Last night, Carla and I went to see Lady In The Water, against the better judgment of many movie critics out there. I have to say, though, it was one of the better movies I’ve seen recently. Good job, M.

Him and I are on a first name basis.

Anyways, there was one disturbing thing about the night [besides the enormous bug with 700 legs I found in the bathroom hanging out by the sink. When I turned my back to get some toilet paper to kill it, the soldier of disgust ran away. I doused the crevices with hair spray. I don't know if that will do anything]. One of the movie previews [click here to view] was for a film, World Trade Center.

Am I the only one who thinks this is too soon? The images I saw were very shocking. The plane crashing into the side of the WTC. Firemen and civilians running through a crumbling lobby. And two policemen, trapped beneath rubble, writing notes on pieces of paper that say ‘I love you’ on them.

Do any of us NEED this? What about the families of the victims from this tragedy? Do they need to have a movie out in every screen in America depicting what may [or may not] have happened to their loved ones in the last moments of their life?

Another issue I have is this, and I fear I may be viewed as unpatriotic for thinking it. What benefit do we gain from thinking of this tragedy as a source of inspiration and courage? Is it easier for us to think that those who were in there somehow, in their last moments, did something heroic or brave? I think of those who lost their lives in other well known tragedies, and the stories I’ve heard of them. Such as people being trampled in the gas chambers as they tried to escape the grasp of the poison surrounding them.

In no way am I saying that this is what happened in the WTC events. What I am saying is isn’t it dangerous to create these stories and ideas about what had happened in there? And isn’t it a bit disconcerting that this movie is coming out at the time it is, what with Bush having super low approval ratings and the war on terror becoming a seemingly endless one?

We’re almost 5 years removed from this horrendous event. People are still grieving. Our nation is still trying to recover. But to me, this seems like picking at a scab. This will aggravate emotions, insinuate occurrences and perpetuate ideas about the whole ordeal.

My views on this issue are very sorted. I feel that, as a majority, Americans ignore what we do to other countries and how we treat our neighbors. We feel like we’re the strongest nation ever, so we can decide what’s best for all. I am in NO WAY saying we deserved this attack. I would be a soulless creature if I ever touched upon that idea. But I do think we should have known something was coming. We can only bully people for so long until they start to bully back.

I’m worried this movie will incite more hatred towards the Middle East. I’m worried this movie will make us nostalgic for the days when any person who didn’t look ‘American’ could be harassed for ‘attacking us’. I’m worried that this will renew our blood lust and war hunger.

And I’m worried that this will just tear open the wounds of the survivors, reminding them of what they lost and who they mourn. Is all this really necessary?